Loser

It was my own fault
to keep stop breathing,
My self-made destiny
to stay in touch.
But now I could roar with laughter.

Sometimes there wasn´t enough time
to quit these conversations.
The other day there was no chance
to reach your attentiveness
- I´ve never heard about anyone,
Who is as complicated as you.

I´m not sure about it..
I´m not sure about this game.
I won´t talk about it..
I even won´t tell my name.
Can anyone explain these rules?
Why do I lose -
in every way?

I couldn´t find distraction
when you were all around.
Cause Your sticky personality
caught myself relentlessly
- But I´ve never saw anyone,
who is as inaccessible as you..

I´m not sure about it..
I´m not sure about this game.
I won´t talk about it..
I even won´t tell my name.
Can anyone explain these rules?
Why do I lose -
in every way?

I feel this ungrateful game will poison myself easily
I know this silence will ensure that I curb this tendency

I always hated our short distance
cause I was never able to overcome it
My hidden wish, to get to you as i want,
Will never become true.
- And I´ve never met anyone,
Who is as dissatisfied as me...

I´m not sure about it..
I´m not sure about this game.
I won´t talk about it..
I even won´t tell my name.
Can anyone explain these rules?
Why do I lose -
in every way?

verfasst: 09.08.2004Benjamin Meyer, Anmerkung zum Gedicht